Smile, you got this. You will get through this. You will be okay.
May 2012
I just don't want you to forget me.
I really wanna talk to you, but I have no idea what the fuck to say.
Nothing is worth it if you aren't happy.
I’d rather have strangers reading my tumblr, than people I know.
I'm worried one day I'll mean nothing to you.
Being in a relationship would be nice, but not a necessity.
I wish you can read what I can't say.
I wish i knew more about relationships.
I honestly don’t know where i stand. I feel like i got friend zoned but idk for sure. I most likely did, or i should say i’ve been friend-zoned since day one? you don’t let anyone come close, it’s like you’re always in your own world. I feel like a noob, idk anything. Idk what to do with you, with my feelings, and most importantly prom.
I just wanna break down and cry.
Nothing really happened but i guess i’m taking it to heart. I just realized how painful it is to think about losing you as a friend. Is it worth it? I can’t deny, i really really like you. But i feel like i shouldn’t. I’m just setting myself up for a heartbreak.
Ready for prom,
i got foundation and fake lashes today. My first time buying those products since i only have an 96 color eye shadow pallet, eyeliner, mascara, and eyelash curler. I know what i’m gonna do with my hair and make up, kinda. Let’s hope i don’t mess up. I would be hella mad. I’m so excited to pick up the corsages and boutonnieres for my friends, my date, and i. I just hope they’re not gonna die easily:/ We have about 18-20 people in our group right now, we decided to drive. We’re gonna meet up at Bayla’s house for the flower exchange and pictures. Then more pictures before dinner, then dinner and off to the dance. 4 more days, i’ll get to have the best dance in my high school years <3 :P
I'm not the best, but I'm trying my best.
There's something about you.
I like this feeling this you give me. Something about you that, makes me smile. Something about you that has everything bad turn to good. Something about you that makes me, happy.
I just feel like i got friend-zoned already.
I Won't Give Up
Jason Mraz
Can we all just agree that this song is beautiful?
Knowing that your crush will never like you.
What interests me the most, is a persons mind.
Their stories, their thoughts. The memories. The secrets that lay dormant in their head, waiting to be told. I find it so interesting. Cause I have been through a lot. And I am just fascinated by other’s struggles. Everyone has their own struggle. I love learning about someone’s life. How they came to be the person they are today, why they act or talk the way they do. It’s just very interesting.
I want to go on a late night adventure with someone.
a group of friends or just him :)
Confessing how you feel.
If the person knows how you feel already, is there a point to confess to them? Does it make things better because they’re hearing it from you rather than someone else?
Liking someone you never intended to like.
I like how things are going.
Yeah, i lead myself to disappointment.
A very short lesson in Psychology:
- When a person laughs too much, even on stupid things, that person is sad deep inside
- When a person sleeps a lot, that person is lonely
- When a person talks less and if he talks fast, that person is keeping a secret
- When a person can’t cry, that person is weak
- When a person eats in an abnormal way, that person is in tension
- When a person cries on little things, that person is softhearted
- When someone asks about you although that someone is busy, he/she really loves you
I'm looking forward to...
my childhood best friend coming to visit me during summer. he said he would if his dad comes to Seattle. i’m supposed to see him in China but i guess he might not go back to China this year or at least not the same time as me. I’m tryna make him come here to keep me company after graduation. i really don’t know how i’m gonna be like once i’m outta high school, leaving everyone, leaving him and everything we’ve had behind. I need something to distract me for that whole month because i won’t go to China til august. *sigh. I’m gonna miss him… gotta keep my mind occupied somehow.
